It seems like lately I’ve been going through a lot of internal struggles. Thankfully, I’ve been able to find refuge, reassurance, and encouragement in God’s love. I had been facing a great deal of confusion and uncertainty about my life and the direction it was heading. I am four classes away from my associates degree in applied science for photographic technology which I had to postpone receiving until the end of fall because two of my classes weren’t currently being offered. Even after I get my degree though, it won’t make much of a difference. My passion is photography, but I’m still trying to figure out how I can best use that gift to serve the Lord. None of those doors seem like realistic options and God hasn’t led me to walk through any one in particular at this point. Right now, working in the corporate [retail] world of inconvenient schedules, minimum wage, and the same scenery day in and out is beginning to wear on me, as you might imagine. Seeing no change on the horizon and feeling so unsure kept leading me to a place of hopelessness where I began placing my worth and value in momentary and fleeting things that kept to crumbling beneath me. I was reminded once again that my worth comes from Christ’s death and more importantly His resurrection. I am a valuable treasure in His eyes so much so that He died for me. Nothing can change that or take that away from me. I am a daughter of the King. I am a princess. That message has always been so near and dear to my heart. It’s funny how sometimes we become lost in the chaos of life that we forget to “practice what we preach”. I’ve felt over the last year that God’s calling on my life is to reach out and be a beacon shining His love and giving hope to young women. I believe that eventually will become my full time ministry.
As I’ve been praying, I keep feeling driven to blog. It allows me to pour out everything I love into one place. I get to write and share what God is doing in my life and what He’s teaching me, I get to post my photography, I can film YouTube videos, and even get creative with beauty and craft tutorials if I want to (and if you want me to!). It’s the perfect culmination of my passions. The best part about this is God can use my blog to minister to people – young women specifically. My goal is to have Dreamer’s Shutter be a place that encourages those who drop by. I want God’s love to pour out from my posts and I want women to be reminded of their value. I like to think these posts are contributing to making a more beautiful you from the inside and out and learning how to capture that perfect selfie during the process. Okay, not just the perfect selfie, but also capturing the perfect memories of the beautiful life God is constantly sculpting for us.
If you’re ever feeling unsure about the next step, it helped me to make a list of things I know God has called me to at this point in my life and also the things I want to do and enjoy doing.
First and foremost, our number one goal is to share the love of God with the world. Secondly, if you haven’t already, take a spiritual gifts test to see what the best ways are for you to naturally minister. Spiritual gifts can change over time so if you haven’t taken the test in a while, it might be a good refresher. My top three gifts are faith, exhortation, and wisdom. I trust God in all things and expect Him to move. This allows me to provide encouragement in a situation where someone might be wavering in their faith and also provide insightful understanding of scripture.
What I personally want out of life… I want to do what I love. Writing, taking pictures, and being creative. I want to have the time and money to be able to travel and spend time with my family when I eventually get married and settle down. I want to live debt free. And most importantly, I want God’s will for my life, which leads me back to sharing His love and using my spiritual gifts to do that.
Blogging allows me to do everything on my list. The only problem is, you can’t make money blogging over night. With God all things are possible, but I need a back up plan. As they say, “Work like it all depends on you and pray like it all depends on Him”. So as I’m transitioning to becoming a full time blogger, I began praying for a back up plan that would provide me with enough to get me out of retail and give me enough time to allow me to blog.
The day before Easter, I was at work ringing people out like crazy trying to get the long line of customers down. After the umpteenth person, I started to drift into my own little fog of saying the same lines in the same pattern. It caught me off guard when the woman I was cashing out made a comment that I do my makeup really nicely. She proceeded to ask me if I would be a face model for her and get a free makeover in the process. I was extremely flattered, but when she mentioned it was for Mary Kay products I became hesitant. I have student loans I need to pay for and wasn’t interested in being sold on any makeup or beauty products (one of my weaknesses) let alone being persuaded into becoming a consultant. I had far too much experience with people I know doing party plans and I wasn’t interested in tacking that onto my resume. In the chaos, I gave her my number anyway and she called me a couple days later. It was a free makeover, how could I say no to that? I went in open to hearing about the products, but keeping my wallet guarded. It didn’t work out so well because a week later I was signed up as an independent beauty consultant. For the first time, I met someone who had been truly successful in this industry and showed me what it looked like. As a Mary Kay consultant, there’s no limit to how much money you can make and there’s no set schedule. You work when you want to work and as much as you want to work to make what you want to make. Not to mention, you can even earn a pink cadillac as a company car. There was just so much opportunity available to immerse myself in. One of the main reasons I decided I wanted to commit to this company was because their philosophy is God first, family second, and career third. Their goal is to enrich women’s lives. I attended my first Mary Kay meeting on Monday and seeing the enthusiasm my directors had and how they interacted with the women ignited the passion inside of me and my desire to reach out to women. Being in Mary Kay is something that I believe God is going to use to prepare me for my role as a leader. I lack comfortability going out and talking to people. It makes me even more uncomfortable trying to sell people things, but essentially that’s what life is all about. We are all trying to “sell” something. Whether it’s a product, service, belief, faith, or even just ourselves. Learning how to market and actually sell something is a vital aspect of life and it’s one I am certainly still trying to develop and improve. The difference I see in Mary Kay is the heart behind everything. Every time someone purchases a product they aren’t just taking care of themselves by purchasing a quality cosmetic that will improve the health of their skin, but it also helps the consultant build a better life for themselves, their family, and allows them to encourage and provide others with the same opportunity. I think it’s really lovely that Mary Kay just wants every woman in the world to feel beautiful, be pampered, and lead a successful and happy life. I see God’s fingerprints all over this business venture and I trust that it’s one He will bless.
If you’d like to help and support my new business you can shop online at www.marykay.com/amandagloth.
I also do fun facial and makeover parties where you can earn free products for hosting.
Maybe you’re like me and hit a plateau where you just weren’t sure what the next step was. You’re looking for more money and more time. Maybe this is God’s answer for your as well.
Please email me at email@example.com if you have question and would like to find out more information about hosting or hearing about career options.
&& Thank you so much for sticking with me throughout this super lengthy post. I try to avoid writing novels, but felt it was necessary to share on this occasion.